||[Jun. 30th, 2008|08:37 pm]
Wow. Time just zooms past, without us even realising it. It's been seven months and counting. It's alright that you're no longer here. Just say "hi" once in a while, okay? I miss you thirteen swimmingpool-loads (: I should stop being so sentimental and keeping every piece of nonsense that I've accumulated. Letters received the past don't mean much nowadays. Promises made months ago just stop becoming real. Memories count for nothing. The night's all ours. And why do I keep seeing you? Damnit. I wish I could let you into my life, but I can't and I won't because in the long run, it's just gonna suck. How do you do it? That chance encounter was enough to make me question all sorts of things. What if what if what if. We spend our lives thinking, choosing, deciding, what the hell is it all for? Alternate universes would be cool, but whose universe would alternate with whose? The grass is always greener on the other side, but how do you know for sure? Opportunities always come (and go), but how do you know which is the right one for you? Finally I understand what people have been writing about. Tiny things like split-second glances mean something. I'm tired of picking up the mess after you. Stop acting so dumb. You know what you mean, and I know what you mean but you still want to fake it. So much hopes, so many dreams. Waiting waiting and waiting. I'm in slow motion while the rest of the world's on fast-forward. I wish I could be more like you. Dont' ignore me like that. We're so different right now, have been and always will be. It's not gonna happen but I wish it would. We could have been awesome friends but the moments slipped past us. You give the best hugs ever. I don't think you remember me, but I remember you. I loved it, short and sweet and so you. You were a mistake, and my favourite one at that. Everybody has issues, some just hide it better than others. What wouldn't I give. The song that we loved. You're not always alone, you know. Sometimes, impulsive actions might just be the best things you ever do. I dont' need a hero. We study so that we can get jobs and so that we can satisfy the basic needs of life, but how do we learn to live? Shit happens. It's okay that I like the red ones and you like the orange ones. We only got close towards the end, but it still wasn't enough. Nachos are best eaten with you. Don't tell me you forgot all about it. Second chance?
Hey you. I feel so bad right now. But I don't know how to make it up to you, dinner's on me? I'm really really so so so sorry! Was having a bad day, but that's no excuse. So I'm sorry. I truly am.