annkwara

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 17:41:12 GMT

You never fail to break my heart
But I'm still stupid enough to let you do this to me
Again and again and again.

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 12:35:10 GMT

I'm in a pretty bad mood right now, but I don't know why.
Oh wait maybe it's something to do with...
1. I did something uber-bitchy just now and now I regret so fucking badly. I'M SO SO SO SO SO SORRY!!!

2. My grandma is complaining that I'm not eating dinner and shouting it all out to no one in particular (i.e the entire house)

3. I screwed up my skills test. But please please please let me get a B?

4. See item 1 again.

5. Just generally.

I feel so bloody tired and lazy and irritable. Grahhhhh! I'm even too lazy to eat dinner, that's how epic lazy I am.

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 14:51:05 GMT

Hello LJ I've missed you.
So... School's gonna start in a few days and our timetable's coming out tomorrow and I hope I'll get a good one!! Like maybe, classes that start at 10am earliest (so I can cab without peak hour charges!), or maybe a day off or something..
Holidays are ending and school's about to start. Whatthefuckhappenedtotime???
Got to reading Hilma's LJ. I miss her and every one of my friends who're gonna face the A's in a month or so's time. I MISS YOU GUYS!!! PLEASE PLEASE STUDY HARD SO THAT YOU CAN ACE YOUR EXAMS AND SAY "UP YOURS!" TO MOE AND FINALLY HAVE A LIFE AND TIME TO PARTAY!!!

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 16:48:44 GMT

collegeboard.com is my new favourite site.
Haha. Geeky I know. Especially since results are out today and I haven't seen mine.
I kinda wish I had just left for US after O-Levels or something...
I really really really want Poly to be over already so I can get a move on and go to NYU already. Hahahahaha. Dreaming big, I know.
New York would be so frickin' awesome!
The Met, the Guggenheim, Fifth Avenue, Saks, Bloomingdale's, Barneys, Central Park, Central Park Zoo, Conde Nast (my future workplace- I hope), Broadway, Coney Island, Rockefeller Center, Empire State Building (cheesy, yes but I like it) the Village, Washington Square, Times Square, FAO Schwarz, and the ultimate - the New York Public Library. (:

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 07:51:45 GMT

When will you ever stop being such an insufferable fucking prick?

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 21:20:51 GMT

Tumblr is for whiling the time away and looking at purty peektures. When I want to ramble and talk about shit; livejournal's the space.
It's nearly 5am and apparently my mind and body clock have decided to elope to Paris, cos it's like 10pm and that's what it feels like in my mind.
Huh. I need to stop backspacing my words. Forget it, I'm gonna try and lull myself to sleep.
Am meeting F for movie tomorrow so I gotta wake upppp! Haha. I woke up at 4pm today, to eat and whatever and promptly fell back to sleep till 8plus. Heehee. I lubs holidays :D

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 15:39:52 GMT

I haven't felt like this since I was 11.

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 13:10:16 GMT

It's a month to the end of Sem 2.1. And how I wish it would all just be over already!
Got back results for Audio Pro and Sing Cam today. Got an F for skills test, a bloody F! I'm so pissed at myself.
Sing Cam grade isn't anything to be proud of either.
I'm really really afraid of having to retake Audio Pro in 4.1. I really don't want to. Please please please...
My GPA this semester is going to be such a joke. I'm so damn scared for my future right now.

This semester has been really bad for me. I really just want to it to be over and done with. Please?

Here's hoping that tomorrow will be a better day (:

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 06:20:03 GMT

I HAVE NO INTERNET AT HOOOOME! ):
So I'm forced to mooch off internet from the Mac Lab. Balls lah. It's not fun to use internet in school. I like using internet in the comfort of my bed (: Hahahaha.
It feels weird using the laptop but not going on internet. I feel so....impotent. HAHAHA.
Okay, the technician will be here on Friday so hopefully yaaaay!
Film term paper is due on Friday and fuck, I'm damn scared man. 12 pages!
And BMR paper review's due on Monday. Balls. Why all the deadlines coming up??
And and I still have not taken my Jap re-test cos Shigeta-san was sick on Monday. Gah. I damn scared for Jap too!!!

September September Septemberrrrrrrrrrrrr!

I remember watching "The Shining" for class last week and then Jack was typing away on his typewriter but it turned out that he'd been typing "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy" all the way, paragraphing, formatting it like as if it's a novel, but it's all the same line. Haha. Ok I don't know how to explain but it was fucking cool. I would do that one day... Hahaha.

Anyway. I'm watching HP with Fifi this Friday. Yaaay! Hahaha.

Everyone's stressing over BMR review. Okay, I should be stressed too.
Hmmm. I've been watching movies at night, but not "The Prestige". Haha. I don't think I like "The Prestige" too much anymore ):
I've watched "When Harry Met Sally" for the first time last night. It's nice, but kinda 80's. Heh.
Okay, tonight I shall watch .... something bimbotic. Hahahaha.

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 16:52:10 GMT

My head's spinning now. Like, srsly. It feels like there's an ~~erarethquakesa~~ earthquake in my brain. I can't even see the screen properly.
It's been a shit week. It can only get better from now, right? It fucking better be.
I need a drink. Or make that, drinks.
I can't wait for 12th December already! Gah. Now, alcohol is not so accessible to me. But once the clock strikes 12, I'm gna make best friends with the nearest 7-11! :D
I'm a little scared that I will go out of control and really become an alcoholic. Ha. That'll be funny.
Anyways, I NEED A DRINK! I wanna get piss-drunk and fall over and forget my own name.

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 15:24:05 GMT

*Heh. I just realised I forgot to post this...

I had the weirdest dream the other day. Like met S at some random event thing, so we started talking, then I said I had to go back to TP later, so he offered to give me a ride, then we went to a supermarket to buy some stuff like food or something, then I got back to school and I was in the publishing room and there were people there, someone was talking to me but I was looking out the window and I saw S and his girlfriend by the fountain thing near Mensa, and he was carrying her like he was gonna drop her in the water, which he did, but somehow the water was deep enough that the girlfriend was like shoulder-deep in water, I shouted "OMG!" and everyone in the publishing room turned to the window. Then I forgot already. Hahaha. Okay weird random dream for no reason.

I started working at Ameba again. Worked full day on Tuesday with Kimbo :D T'was really fun. Went dinner afterwards with Kim, Teri and Becks (sp?) at Ponggol Nasi Lemak. I seriously love the food there, but it's all so fried...

Today was Lip-Dub day at ibis hotel. Woke up late and cabbed down, had lunch with Namirah Amirah (sp?) Amelia Justini Pearlynn LiFang Daniel PeiTing. I think we filmed pretty quickly? Not bad, considering we rpetty much only planned our video at around 2plus... I was a bartender trying to seduce Bing. Hahahahaha. But I think our video was pretty good (: Daniel went topless! Lol. Whenever we watched one of our takes, and Daniel came onscreen (topless) we would all laugh...

Went to Arts House after. Met Erny Samly. Jin Nick Josh Hannah and a buncha others came down. (Eunice says hello! according to Jin.)Lol.
Postbox came on only at like 8ish and ended at about 8.30plus... Salmah and I can remember the lyrics already, thanks to Perth Morning Shower Radio. They didn't play Discopop ): But the did Miss Sunshine and Kiss Me. Niceeee :D

Cabbed down to Amara for dinner with Steph Kevin Michael. Nearly Tatsuya standard, I like. The foie gras, the otoro, amaebi, chawanmushi, wagyu were all damn good... Especially the otoro. Whoa!

Wed, 27 May 2009 14:11:39 GMT

Restaurant City is EVIL. Meh!
Okay. I need to study my Katakana Jap stuff for tomorrow's test to make up for my dismal F for the last test. Boooo!
Don't like Jap!

So here's a list of things to be done during Term Break (what a joke!)
- Film Journal
- Film Paper
- Audio 1
- Audio 2
- SingCam PSA/TVC
- SingCam Remaking A Scene
- BMR Lit Review
- BMR survey
- BMR Paper Review
- Jap studying

I don't think I'm gonna like Year2 work very much ):

Tue, 26 May 2009 13:40:38 GMT

I'm so tired of everything.
I have major sleep debts to make up for.
I have people I want and need to meet up with, for the sake of my sanity.

I want to just sloth around for a while and just watch DVDs in bed and read in bed and just... sleeeeeeeeeeeeep. I miss my bed.

School is just ... school.
My GPA is just falling slowly and painfully.
I can't wait for the end of 2.1. 4th Sept, come to meeee!

Last week of school already. Yay yay yay!

Fri, 15 May 2009 15:40:37 GMT

I should really be sleeping now because I have to be at the National Stadium tomorrow morning at 8freaking30 am.
I was already in the sleepy mood, but then something just popped into my mind and being neurotic, I just had to open up that can of worms. And now I can't get back to my peaceful sleepy state of mind.
Whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy

I really really need a vacation right now.
Or a double-triple-quadruple drink.

But I realise drinking doesn't help much. Yeah, it's nice to have that warm fuzzy feeling that makes me feel like I have a layer of armor or something but it's just short-term... Booo.
They should invent something that lets you edit and erase your memories. I would be first in line for that.

Parentals are coming down, plus Aunt plus Grandfather plus Jeannie. It's going to be plenty crowded. On the upside, we'll have a maid :D

There's not enough hours in the day, srsly.

19 Days

Sun, 10 May 2009 14:38:08 GMT

It's 19 days to the end of term..
It's 117 days to the end of semester 2.1. Okay, let's not think so far into future.

19 days.
All I have to do right now is survive these 19 days and their deadlines and tests and proposals and journals.
And hope that my energy comes back after the term break.

I just feel so fucking tired with life right now.
I want those heartbeat-inducing paddles that they use in Grey's Anatomy or Scrubs or whatever medical drama, to just pump me up and get me back on track.

On a happier note, I think something that's been a long time coming has finally happened. Yay (:

Wed, 06 May 2009 06:24:27 GMT

What the fuck.

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 14:14:29 GMT

I haven't updated in 3 weeks.
I planned on Lj-ing and be in bed by 10pm tonight. But then.. I went on Facebook and started uploading my Perth pictures so now, here I am LJ-ing at 10pm. But at least Perth pictures are up, though only the nice ones with faces. The scenery and landscape-y shots I don't think I'll be posting it up? Hmmm, see how lah.

So anyway.
Year 2 has started!
Kinda excited cos YAY!Film!, kinda sad cos this is our last full year in poly, kinda excited cos we're no longer freshies, kinda sad cos we're all split in different classes ):
Oh well. Life has to have its ups and downs I guess.

Anyway.
I think we might be moving. For real. Which I kinda don't want to, cos despite the reputation of our address, the location is awesome. We have plenty of bus stops, good hawker places, near to MRT, near to library, near to PP-ish. I LIKE LIVING IN GEYLANG!
But if we move nearer to TP also I don't mind lah. Hahahaha.

Okay. Had quite a lot to say just now, but I'm kinda tired already.
Will LJ more tomorrow night...

Perth I

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 09:16:11 GMT

I'm in PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERTH! Hahahahahaha.
Been for like five days already or something. It's been awesome loads of fun! Our apartment's pretty nice, but kinda lacking in space and couches. Hahaha. But... our bathroom's HUGEASS! (:
I regret not bringing more clothes man. I'm already re-wearing clothes lah. I thought I would come here and buy clothes, but... nah. So far I've bought a couple of leggings, a watch, some accessories, havaianas (omg!! so cheap can! 25 for a pair!!!), a couple of sandals and icantrememberwhatelse. Hahahahaha.
And I've been keeping track of my expenses hokay!
It's kinda cold but a heatwave's coming in this weekend.... So yay! And tomorrow we're going to Rottnest Island where it's gonna be uber-hot.
Campus is pretty! 'Specially since it's autumn-ish now. It's like Yale but with palm trees. Hahahahahahaha.
And omgggg. Baker's Delight hot cross buns are so good! I think I've had one pretty much everyday or something. Hahaha.
The nights have been really fun. We've been cooking! Okay, the girls have been cooking, I'm just the dishwasher. HAHAHAHA. But fun lah. We eat potatoes or cheese at every dinner. But I think we're getting sick of it now...
Been playing bridge, poker, taboo,mafia at night. So fun! But we make a heck lot of noise man. So much so the neighbours have complained. Hahahhaha.
Having picnics on campus for lunch.
And and and and so sad, got no regular access to internet! Have to rely on internet cafes and shit ):

K am gonna take many many many pictures.

WASTING MY TIME

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 12:11:41 GMT

Friday the 13th never seemed so true.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!
I am so fucking pissed off!
Bloody shit.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!

Made jump through so many hoops, call here call there, waste my time. And what, for nothing?!?!?!?!
FUCK. I really want to hit something right now.

Couldn't you have told me this earlier??
It's bloody ridiculous!
Wasting my time, wasting my parents' time. And now you want me to pay for the inconvenience that you caused me?
Fuck man. I'm no Munah/Hirzi, I don't want to pay a dollar for the inconvenience. I want YOU to pay for MY inconvenience.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

You think I have nothing better to do? You think my parents have nothing better to do?

FUCK!

I refuse to getting a fucking P grade just because of you!
Wasting my time, giving me stupid answers.

FUCK MAN.

You gave me instructions, I did what you wanted, and now, what?!?!?!?!
I have to pay extra?!?!
You think what, money grows on trees?

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 13:42:41 GMT

This is when I love my keluarga (:
Papi and Mami have been really nice about signing all the papers and getting people to bring it to Sg and Ce Anna has been awesome about faxing and scanning the documents. Thanks soooo much!

Visa application is going wrong when it can go wrong. And I don't even have the option of not going to Australia cos otherwise, I'll get a freaking P grade. And I don't think NYU takes in people with P grades. Haha.

Today is the first night in the week that I'll have a chance to get a good night's sleep. Yay!
Past few days I've been rolling in around midnight (no midnight cab surcharge!) coming back from Chalet and all. Haha. Chalet was a blast man. Although it sucked that I couldn't stay all night ):

MBA was yesterday and I think it was awesome (:
The Year 3s are ... undescribable lah. In a good way.
I loved the video they made. Haha. Super cool!

Oooh. And the new Council Committee was announced. Josh, Zam, and Sam are VPs and Head of Publicity (Woohoo! Go T02!) Andrea is President, Salmah's Quartermaster/mistress, Shawn Pang is Logistics, Hui Wen is Treasurer, Rachel is Head Admin. CONGRATULATIONS Y'ALL :D

Speaking of ( :D ), results were SMS-ed out just as MBA was about to start. There was one guy who went like, "Huh? What's this smiley face?" And his friend said something like, "That's a D dude, not a smiley face." LOL.

Guess what? In a month or so, we're gonna be Year 2s! No longer freshies! Haha. So exciting... but kinda saddening also.
I like the Year2 council people. They were awesome. YOU WILL BE MISSED! Haha. Though it's not like they'll read this but yeah...

Tomorrow we have to go to school to watch some movies about China (CSE, anyone?) and go for some museum thing.
Gah.

I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hope my visa gets approved and I can go for UWA trip!!!

A Couple of Pennies

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 19:09:25 GMT

I can't sleep. My head's too full of...whatever.
So I guess I'm just hoping that LJ-ing will do some Pensieve thing for my mind. Haha.

Just finished Revelations, the 3rd Blue Bloods book.
Seriously, I think it's one of the best vampire fiction I've ever read. It's like Gossip Girl + Twilight + Anne Rice + dilution solution. Haha. Anne Rice is pretty good, but Twilight was kinda blah for me. Too much "forever"-ness. And for someone who has... issues, I didn't like it much.

Was talking to B today about life in general.
Yeah, I don't regret TP. But sometimes I do wonder (quite a lot, actually) about how life would be if I had continued in MJ. I loved college life, I did. I would have to study pretty hard to get promoted or advanced or whatever, but you know, life and friends would have made up for all that mugging, wouldn't it?

I feel really stupid when I try to do my SAT book and I come across the math questions. I miss math, and science and all that academia stuff. After 10 years in the school system, it's a little hard to just let go. Or maybe I'm just weirdly academically sentimental or whatever.

Right now, I just don't really like where I am now, in this point of my life.
Or maybe it's just wanderlust or something. Pretty much everyone is overseas or leaving. I want to leave too.

I've been pretty anti-social lately. Life this week has just been work and home and occasionally going out at night with the UWA people.

The visa papers have been a bitch to get, but I hope it gets approved. It would suck like fuck if I couldn't go for the trip. Or maybe not. I could run off to somewhere else ;)

Whimper whine, rinse and repeat.

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 13:27:31 GMT

*whimpering*
I'm actually whimpering here.
Much to the amusement of my brother.

Why give an end-of-semester test? I'd so rather have an exam or something, then we can have more time to try and squash MMP info into our poor brains that have already been wracked by Photog and PerComm this week!
*WHINES*

*thinks to self*
But like that, term wouldn't really end tomorrow now, would it? And we wouldn't have extra two weeks' holiday.

Okayyyy. Maybe we should have a test instead.

Huh. Just no hopes of doing well this time. Hmm. You think birthday karma will strike twice? Haha. And tomorrow's 12th Feb, that's like two months to the date of my birthday. YAY!

I realise I like to type words in full and in correct spelling beacuse the red dotted line under the misspelled words are very annoying.

I'M WHINING ALOT BUT BEAR WITH ME COS FROM TOMORROW 10.30AM (OR EARLIER) I SHALL STOP WHINING! (Or at least, cut down on the whining. I'll be having holidays, so not much to whine about. Except for the lack of shopping money and lack of better-paying job opportunities and the lack of my cheapo laptop and...Oh, fuck it. I'll whine again next time.)

I really really really want a drink right now.

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 11:39:32 GMT

Photog make-up quiz was such a joke, I don't even know why I bothered to go for it.

I am very annoyed now.
I want to read my new pretty books: The Graveyard Book and The Birthing House.
But I know once I start, I can't stop.
So I've been reading mediocre boring books for my bedtime reads.

TWO MORE DAYS!
PerComm speech and MMP test and this semester will be finally OVER!

I need a drink.

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 12:56:23 GMT

Fugger bugger.
There's so much to do - study for Photog, study for MMP, do my PerComm speech, organise my photoblog. Okay lah, it's 4 things only. But these things take so long to be done!!!

Yesternight. I felt like The Curious Case of Michelle Ann Kwara.
In the space of two hours, I felt from being 21 to being like a little girl again.

Had drinks at Morton's and of course, the Legendary Hot Chocolate Cake.
30 minutes of waiting, 3 minutes of legen -wait for it- dary cake! (:

Drinking backwards

Tue, 03 Feb 2009 15:01:27 GMT

Glag.
I'm suffering from a coldcough combo. Which is not good, because there's alot to do this week!!
Like, tomorrow I have a PerComm presentation!!!!

I did something weird today.
We were doing work at the Maclab (notice I typed "at" and not "in") and then I started to get the hiccups. Sam told me to drink backwards, to cure it. It was kinda hard to do that, but so weird and FUN! Haha. I want to drink backwards again...

Anyways. Moving on.
Guess what? It's the 100th post! Teehee.

I read theincompletehuix's LJ, one of the back entries.
It's stupid, but man! Do I miss MJ! ):
Orientation starts on Thurs till Sat. I wanna crash!! Haha.

I finally finished my IWA2. Oh man. If I don't get an A, I will ~~kill~~ cut someone!

Should be doing PerComm script speech or learning my French lines or learning my Jap lines.
But fuckadoodles. I want to play Pet Society!